Failure

Sometimes I do not know what God wants me to be. All I can do is just surrender and keep on hoping.

In the past 2 months, I have to face the truth that I failed in achieving my resolutions. Twice! This failure feeling is making me frustrated but I will not give up easily. I'm sad but still have faith. In fact, I always pray so God will lead my way to step in this life.

I tell you, it is not easy for me to strive when you have no one to talk to, to share your problems with. No one knows what exactly happen with me. I zip my mouth tightly because I do not want to depend on human being.
I'm sick of people's judgements.
I only put my heart in God, for He is never do me wrong.

Besides, I think my life needs to be evaluated and repaired first. It's getting messy inside.
Love thingy? Well, I still need to fix my heart tough. People come and go like they are heartless! Seriously. They like to pissed me off with their disappointed breaking promises.
But I thank to my ex and newcomers -who suddenly disappeared-, to teach me how to be strong and independent. Without your unrealized (or realized?) cruel deeds, I can not be this tough.

I believe everything will be so beautiful in His right time..
Be patient and have faith :)

The Lord is faithful to all His promises and loving toward all He has made ~ Psalm 145: 13b

God.. Show me Thy ways

Arrghh, God, seriously, I still can not sleep though I already decided what I want to do ahead.
I feel like... lost, even in this middle of the night, I go here and there but still do not find the answer. Okay, family does come first but it doesn't mean you can control my life. Now I live in the shadow of my parents' words and It feels unbearable torture me.

Nothing is wrong with accounting but it is not my passion, or let make it simple- it is not something i want to live with-
Arrrgghh.. Please show me Thy way, O Lord.. I beg you :'(

piano teaching

Hi there!

I just arrived home from piano teaching. Well, I've been teaching classical piano for about 6 years at more than 5 music schools, until finally I open my little piano course at home. It's my side job but I really love it. I love piano. I love kids. I love teaching. I love music. That's more than enough for me :))

This afternon I replaced another teacher because her son was sick. I met new students who speak mix English and Indonesian. I wonder how they learn those languages in the same time and they can speak both fluently in that young age - 3 or 4 years old -

I get so many experiences with my students. I had been teaching children with autism, 3 years old toddler, soldiers, 55 years old mother, incredibly rich people, foreigner and many more. It's fun to know many cultures from different background. Besides, I also learn how to be a teacher, friend, sister even mother in the same time because I have to quickly adapted with new person with different age and personality. And teaching classical piano, you need more patient and passion on it. But I like to mix with pop or requested song by my students to make our lesson lively.

These are some of my students :)

Naya with her little fingers

Iqbal who can't speak Indonesian

Even I have to be Henry's mother here >.<

Smart Hanna

Lazy Habib --"

Maudlin Angie

My lovely chinese student, Abigail

Adriel at Grand Concert. Proud of you, boy!

Diza, with her somewhere over the rainbow piano playing at Grand Concert

sweet marriage proposal :)

I found this video unintentionally. This is sweet, seriously. I wish I got the marriage proposal too XD

The Engaged Idealist

I saw my friend took this personality test on Ipersonic and I tried mine to make sure its accuracy and below are the results. Unpredictably, I just realized what kind of person I am.

Engaged Idealists like you are extroverted and helpful. Others find you to be very congenial and inspiring - especially as you are always willing to see the best in the other person. Your humour, your energy and your optimism attract other people. Engaged Idealists are very good at communicating and are good at convincing and firing on others. That is why it is a matter of course that you often take over the leading role in groups. Your personality type often produces very charismatic persons.

Engaged Idealists have an unusually strong ability to empathise. You are tolerant and generous towards others; you sometimes tend to idealise your friends. You always try to suit everybody and want your relationships to be harmonious and satisfactory. To achieve this, you are prepared to invest a great deal and to put your requirements last. As Engaged Idealists are very considerate, there is the danger of you sacrificing and overexerting yourself for others. In your job, you therefore have to be very careful not to develop a burnout syndrome.

As an Engaged Idealist you are one of the extroverted personality types. You enjoy working in a colorfully diverse group of people who interest and inspire you. Working in a “secluded room” is not your thing. You enjoy emphasizing with those around you and soon everybody senses the high priority and importance people represent to you. Therefore a team-oriented project is just right for you.

Your insight into human nature, your feel for your colleague’s and/or subordinate’s positive sides and potentials and your preparedness to encourage and support everyone around you to the best of your ability quickly brings them closer to you. People like to ask you for advice, appreciate your caring ways and appreciate to be taken under your wings. Within your means you are always available to others who need you because you yourself enjoy the ultimate gratification of being able to help others to make the best of themselves and to be successful mediating conflicts among people. 

You are well suited to be an executive: It is difficult to resist your charisma, your enthusiasm and your ability to excite and motivate others. Authoritarian management attitudes are not your thing; it is your way to convince others of a project’s reason and significance who will then look forward to follow you voluntarily. You place a lot of value on creating the willingness to cooperate in others and with your gift to motivate that usually comes easy to you. You do not enjoy conflicts, need harmony and invest lots of energy and time in a good working climate and a harmonic relationship of your colleagues among each other.

to smokers, watch this!

It is so painful when you know how cruel the business is, gradually destroy my country, Indonesia. 
For smokers, you are more precious than the business. Watch, learn and decide!

be careful when you drive!

Deep condolence for victims in Tugu Tani, Jakarta, Indonesia.
So, here's the story.
There was a car accident  in Tugu Tani, Jakarta, Indonesia and killed 9 pedestrians and many people injured.

The public in Indonesia is being shocked by a shocking tragedy involving a car and 9 people dead. the auto accident happened because the car was driven fast and hit a bus stop in its attempt to avoid passers by. Because of the car hitting lots of people waiting for the bus, about 9 people were killed and many others were injured.


Suspected of this accident is Apriani, who drove the car. The night before the accident, she and her friends involved in booze and also drug activities. And when the police found her, she couldn't show her driver license or a valid vehicle registration and only of an expired registration document.


So guys, be careful when you drive! Do not use drugs or drink booze when and before driving cause it will trouble your self.