Community Awareness

To be a servant, you don't have to be a priest, missionaries, or whatsoever you name it. You can simply give your little time to people who needs it much.

The day has come, on February 10th, 2013 at Ragunan zoo, Jakarta, was my batch time to show to the three marginal communities how we committed to give the best for them. From our previous time, we had been teaching the marginal children in around Jakarta for about 4 months and that day was the final activity of our event. We made them many competitions, such as drawing, singing, etc. I was suddenly assigned to be a master of ceremony (MC) exactly at that time to replace the late MC. Hahha.. Though I was a treasurer of this activity, I got so much fun as a Master of Ceremony; laughing, chatting, sharing with them. I feel really blessed with my own life and thankful for the opportunity to share love with them.

Be good, guys! Stay blessed.

Dignity meets priority

If you don't love and respect yourself, then who will??

But I still don't know....

Why I let you ruin my life with your bad deeds and habits and I only can stare without making revenge?
Should I standing still like nothing happen while you hurting me over and over again??

I get down on my knees and pray. I hope to The Almighty that you will understand someday..

Failure

Sometimes I do not know what God wants me to be. All I can do is just surrender and keep on hoping.

In the past 2 months, I have to face the truth that I failed in achieving my resolutions. Twice! This failure feeling is making me frustrated but I will not give up easily. I'm sad but still have faith. In fact, I always pray so God will lead my way to step in this life.

I tell you, it is not easy for me to strive when you have no one to talk to, to share your problems with. No one knows what exactly happen with me. I zip my mouth tightly because I do not want to depend on human being.
I'm sick of people's judgements.
I only put my heart in God, for He is never do me wrong.

Besides, I think my life needs to be evaluated and repaired first. It's getting messy inside.
Love thingy? Well, I still need to fix my heart tough. People come and go like they are heartless! Seriously. They like to pissed me off with their disappointed breaking promises.
But I thank to my ex and newcomers -who suddenly disappeared-, to teach me how to be strong and independent. Without your unrealized (or realized?) cruel deeds, I can not be this tough.

I believe everything will be so beautiful in His right time..
Be patient and have faith :)

The Lord is faithful to all His promises and loving toward all He has made ~ Psalm 145: 13b

sweet marriage proposal :)

I found this video unintentionally. This is sweet, seriously. I wish I got the marriage proposal too XD

pursue my dreams

Well, actually, we all have our own dreams and it must be SOMETHING HUGE! 

That's why it is called dreams..

I also have my own dreams and unfortunately can not say in this public area.

Okay, sometimes it's not easy to pursue your dreams. Moreover, I have my parents do not agree with some parts of it.

I actually know exactly what I wanna do in the future. I have my role models in my environment.

I do like music, fashion, business, entrepreneurship and so on. The things that I just mentioned are things that I really like and wanna do as my career. 

But, is it too arrogant to limited your talents that given by God?

One person said to me that I have to focus on something that I want to achieve. And please don't get me wrong if I want to study many things. Basically, I love to learn and study.

I can mix things with different perspective to make it greater if I have knowledge, right??

So people, please do not judge others with their mindset of how they pursue their dreams.

We'll see whose gonna smile eventually :)

just married!

Waitttt,  I'm not the one whose getting married, I'm just telling the story of my friends' wedding. My friends, Cio and Chacha was finally getting married on November 6th, 2011 at Puri Begawan, Bogor. They'd been in a relationship for 7 years!! Can you imagine?? It's a damn long time! 

Okay, here it goes.. On Sunday, my friends from Jakarta, Reni and Bella came to Bogor. We would like to attend Cio's wedding. We got our hair curly, did make up on face and wore beautiful gown and heels. Quite took time cause we have to queue at saloon and finished at 6.30 pm where the party started on 7pm. We back home in hurry and do girl's things. When we finished, I drove to Puri Begawan and parked pretty far from the wedding place. Pretty hard to walk from parking area to wedding ballroom and everyone was seeing us like, hellooooo, what the hell are you wearing on the public street?? okay, whatever! We kept walking till arrived at Puri Begawan. It was such a beautiful ballroom, flowers everywhere.. I met my college friends and had some chat there. Well, I have a group of friends and we called our self "Gank Ubur-Ubur" in English you can say "Jellyfish group." lol. So stupid, forget it! 

We took pictures and had fun. Indeed!

Bella went to Jakarta with Tasya and Renni stayed at my home for a night. On our way home, Eyi made a confession to Renni that she already in a relationship with our friend at college. Well, actually it was not surprising her. Getting late at night, we continued our conversation acompanied with Yiruma's songs (really supporting the marriage-love-conversation), asking: who will be our love partner? when will our wedding held? where and how finally we convince to be his partner in life? Who knows, huh? 

Life is such a mystery