Thesis, how dare you!

I'm a bit overwhelmed of doing thesis. How dare you stealing my peaceful moments! Sigh. Please, help! =.=

Self-talking

Whatever ought to be, can be..

Note this

Sometimes it's better to put that camera and your mobile phone down and really enjoy what you're seeing and being with.

Reminder

Stumbling

"If you stumble, make it part of the dance"

Life has been complicated lately. I've been struggling, not only for my study but also in my social life. But, I try not to give up or sue The Almighty with the things happened to me. 

I have been learning to be a long-term oriented, visionary, hard worker and whatsoever you name it. Maybe it seems a bit ambitious or scary for my surroundings and in the process of achieving those things, I did wrong approach. Frankly, I paid half of my master tuition fee with my previous working salary so for me every penny really matters. The money came from tears and hardworking-sweat, thus I won't make it vain. 

But I did one mistake, I forced people to understand my position; to see what I see, to feel what I feel, to do what I do. To be honest, I can't stand to see lazy or not-visionary people meanwhile I have to struggle for the sake of my group's goodness. And if they didn't want to understand, I easily got high tension.

In the end, I realize these was my big mistake.

They start mocked, quipped, ignored and did things that hurt me. But, I try not to escape from the truth, I apologized to those whom I hurt and I really learn to face this with open-hearted and I ask God to give me faith, strength and wisdom so that I can think clearly, cold-headed,  and not doing wrong things anymore. Pain is inevitable but I know it is used to mold me to be a better person. Yes, this is stumbling me but I will make it a part of my dance.

lesson learned

what I learned lately about life.

You can not expect somebody else to do what you can do.

You have to be brave to embrace your dreams.

You have to speak out to be listened.

You must control your attitude to manage people.

The more you learn, the more you know.

The more you complain, the heavier your burden.

Life is not easy unless you strive to achieve what you want.

and the the last but not least, still, the deadliest disease is a simple thing called.. MONEY

Dignity meets priority

If you don't love and respect yourself, then who will??

But I still don't know....

Why I let you ruin my life with your bad deeds and habits and I only can stare without making revenge?
Should I standing still like nothing happen while you hurting me over and over again??

I get down on my knees and pray. I hope to The Almighty that you will understand someday..