Stumbling

"If you stumble, make it part of the dance"

Life has been complicated lately. I've been struggling, not only for my study but also in my social life. But, I try not to give up or sue The Almighty with the things happened to me. 

I have been learning to be a long-term oriented, visionary, hard worker and whatsoever you name it. Maybe it seems a bit ambitious or scary for my surroundings and in the process of achieving those things, I did wrong approach. Frankly, I paid half of my master tuition fee with my previous working salary so for me every penny really matters. The money came from tears and hardworking-sweat, thus I won't make it vain. 

But I did one mistake, I forced people to understand my position; to see what I see, to feel what I feel, to do what I do. To be honest, I can't stand to see lazy or not-visionary people meanwhile I have to struggle for the sake of my group's goodness. And if they didn't want to understand, I easily got high tension.

In the end, I realize these was my big mistake.

They start mocked, quipped, ignored and did things that hurt me. But, I try not to escape from the truth, I apologized to those whom I hurt and I really learn to face this with open-hearted and I ask God to give me faith, strength and wisdom so that I can think clearly, cold-headed,  and not doing wrong things anymore. Pain is inevitable but I know it is used to mold me to be a better person. Yes, this is stumbling me but I will make it a part of my dance.