Bitter becomes better

It's 4 am and I can't sleep. Too many reports to finish. Sigh.

Well, we don't know what the future might brings, but you have to face it, ready or not. 2012-2013 have been molded years for me. I ask to God few years ago for persevere, patience, strength, stronger faith and He really gives me that 'gifts' in these years with many challenges that I have to face. And as reward, surely I can get what I asked for.

How can we ask God for sweet things but we don't want to taste the bitter first? It will be sweet after we feel the bitterness and challenges which will mold us to be a better person who see the things with different point of view eventually. Difficult? Definitely! But I have no doubt for He will hold my hands in my bleeding time, yes, just like right now.

I run to God. I have no way out but Him. So why I have to worry?

Faith

Sometimes we make the plans to do this and that, we gonna go to here and there, but do we ever think that it's just a plan? 

So what if it couldn't happen exactly as we wish? Do we have to cry because of the failure that we can not avoid? Because what I've been learning is God already written your story, not you or somebody else.

Human make plans but if God doesn't answer with 'yes', does it mean we stop believe in God? does it mean you don't loved by God?

He has written a big story of you, Have faith!

Don't lose hope!

Community Awareness

To be a servant, you don't have to be a priest, missionaries, or whatsoever you name it. You can simply give your little time to people who needs it much.

The day has come, on February 10th, 2013 at Ragunan zoo, Jakarta, was my batch time to show to the three marginal communities how we committed to give the best for them. From our previous time, we had been teaching the marginal children in around Jakarta for about 4 months and that day was the final activity of our event. We made them many competitions, such as drawing, singing, etc. I was suddenly assigned to be a master of ceremony (MC) exactly at that time to replace the late MC. Hahha.. Though I was a treasurer of this activity, I got so much fun as a Master of Ceremony; laughing, chatting, sharing with them. I feel really blessed with my own life and thankful for the opportunity to share love with them.

Be good, guys! Stay blessed.

Life experience

Before January ends, I hope it is not too late to say happy new year 2013 to each and everyone of you. What a wonderful experience I had in 2012 and the greater will come in 2013, just like I had in this January.

I am so happy because my relationship with my friends is getting so much better; we are no longer in conflict situation and everything goes right though we are not like we used to be. But, I'm grateful.

Well, it doesn't mean the challenges stop here. Now, I'm facing my internship life with lots of assignments from school and tasks from the counterpart. Many obstacles will come but do I have to worry? Absolutely NO!

Sometimes I can not except if things don't happen like it should be. Why we have to turn right or left if we can simply go straight? In this point, I have to lower my expectation and it does difficult. Well, I can not understand people's thought meanwhile I still learning how to manage myself, my heart, my thought, my behavior. I can not force people to do what is good based on my point of view. For example, I think drinking beer to refresh yourself is not a good choice. I did tell him/her it is not good but they are disagree with me. Can I force them to stop? Or simply, can I force people to stop smoking even it is NOT good for their health? Obviously I CAN NOT if it is not consciously whispered in their heart.

So what I have to do to make myself not worry? Surrender. Surrender to The Almighty, for He can do everything you ask to Him. Talk to Him, pray and let His will happen to my life and I have to remind myself that everything can not be forced always as I wish.

Good bye, Suci

I told you on my previous blog that me and my batch in university taught childern in the slum area of Jakarta. I taught a smart little girl named Suci in Duren Tiga but what I heard in the next meeting was she has passed away because of drifted in Mampang River.

The first time popped up when I leave my home to Duren Tiga was I want to teach Suci so bad because she is so smart and friendly, but the fact really hurts, not just for me but also for the entire family and friends; She left us too early. I hope her family can be strong to face the truth and I know everything happens for a better reason.

Good bye, Suci, be good there... :'(

Merry Christmas :)

Hi there!
Been long time not blogging. I had been preparing Youth Christmas Celebration as pianist at my church and we invited Ibeth idol and Matthew Sayersz as guest star to enliven the celebration. The preacher sent message to us to live holy and do sincere for everything we face and it is also what my bf told me. I have to learn to live sincerely for EVERYTHING. Yea, everything, though it's not easy but I believe I can do that.

Anyway, I hope it's not too late but I want to say Merry Christmas to you all and have a wonderful new year with lots of joy and blessings ahead.
Greetings from my family. Cheers :)

Life lately

Just simple things I captured.